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My joking around with the concept of "The Natrix" resulted in so many entries that I decided to collect them all on a page by themselves... It's Just Plain Ludicrous about The Natrix An initial remark on semantics: For I suppose it is strictly speaking incorrect to attribute the herassment described here to "the Natrix" as such (ie. "God" in the sense that some analytic filosophophers use that word), since I suppose that entity could not be attributed the ability of "intending" or indeed "doing" anything at all, other than simply to exist. So strictly speaking I ought to come up with a more suitable word to determine more precisely a more or less specifik sub-system of the Natrix, rather than "the Natrix" as such. Further studies may give me a more specific idea of the rationality of the sub-system in question, in order to locate a more precise term. Until then the term "The Natrix" will have to do. October 15th/16th 2008 - I was considering the term "Haunter", as this term seem to pretty much capture the general nature of what it is that the subsystem in question (which I have now, none the less, decided to in stead tentatively name "Not-existing") does. Needless to say it was obviously not happy when I posted that, and responded with an enactment (as it has had a tendency of doing) of the most naive caricature of hollywood style "haunting" which initially made me consider that the term might perhaps not be precise enough after all. None the less the rather angry response seems to suggest exactly how well the term applies. And to further narrow down its personal character, the term "my haunting spirit" would be applicable were it not for its apparent inability (or, as it may at times seem; lack of will) to distinguish the "ownership"-genitive from any other mode of genitive; why the term "the personal haunting spirit [or the (supposedly) "guiding-" or "guardian angel"*, as is another common term] which manifest itself in the surroundings I perceive" appear to be a better choise. (In fact I'd say that the danish term "forsyn" would be a pretty much perfect capture-all term, except I am not aware of any similar english term capturing the same semantic content.) -Still: I think I'll stick with the term "Not-existing" for now. Thus any instance of the term "the natrix" ought actually be substituted with the term "something not-existing" (Although so far sadly it has not seemed to be in any particular mood to atempt to enact that.). *Although I atempt a more precise determination of its "lower" or "higher" range in my personal notes. - I might make an article out of them sometime. Or (more likely; given that I have no expectation of getting anything nice for writing articles anyways) just publish them as they are. Then again I might not.
How to avoid The Natrix' intrusions and manipulations: First and foremost: To reduce influence to a minimum generally avoid perceiving the semantics in the public space at all: - 1) Get used to resist the habit of reading newspaper headlines, advertisements, graffitis, etc. - 2) If you wear glasses you can take them off so as to reduce the amount of written text and other semantics in your surroundings that you can decipher. Or buy a pair of cheap glasses for using outdoors, and push out the lenses, or replace them with lenses without strength. - 3) Use earplugs (I recommend the wax type) to reduce the amount of music, conversations, etc. from outside. The advantage of wax to other kinds of earplugs is that they can be cut in halves or quarters to get them small enough to not be too visible to others. Alternatively you can collect "non-semantic" music to listen to when you're out. - In case the Natrix applies its communications through the commonly known "music on the mind" phenomenon; a way to stop that is by learning as a reflex reaction to have a (LOUD!) voice go off in your mind, shouting something like for example: "shut the fuck up!!!" every time music as much as think about starting off in your mind. - Generally: Remember that whereever you are NOT looking, and whatever you are NOT listening to; the natrix (ie. the not existing haunting spirit) will not use to communicate (at least not to you); so you're not missing anything anyways. So generally decrease the amount of communication access points to your perceptive field as much as anyhow possible! And secondly: If the Natrix try to mess with your mind by atempting to interfere with your everyday choices or course of action then; as a rule of thumb: just take a mental step back and recall whatever it was you would have chosen in the first place. - Generally: IGNORE the Natrix' communications as far as anyhow possible!
As for passing time the Natrix appear to be fond of anything competitive and generally anything involving action, problem solving, etc. So in order to make sure you give as little quality experience as anyhow possible back to the Natrix I'd recommend passing time with things like jigsaw puzzles, and similar non-competitive, no-paced (and non-semantic) endeavours characterized by no variation and a high degree of triviality, which isn't intellectually stimulating either (so solitaire won't do). Strictly speaking one oughta get rid of the TV and replace it with an aquarium or something like that. 'Nothing wrong with being comfortable though. Just avoid excitement. Also avoid letting yourself be provoked against persons or groups (the Natrix seem to be especially fond of doing that so that must be of particular value to it). And avoid conceiving of new ideas too (just consider the propability that it would be you who profit from them anyways. That oughta get you on the right track). 'Cos those are the things - thrills, battle, and novelties - that the Natrix seem to feed on. And if it want any more of that then (don't believe in any promises or prospects the Natrix appear to offer) it's gonna have to first actually cough up with the pleasures and prosperity it owes! And thus endeth too my rebellion for now: If The Natrix wants any more rebelliousness out of me then it's gonna have to first actually cough up with the pleasures and prosperity it (aided and abetted by concrete people who knew very well what they were doing) has hitherto been obstructing. With regard to systematic testing of the Natrix' reaction patterns the Natrix don't seem to like that. So if nothing else it appear to be an effective way to be of anuisance. My experience in that regard seem to suggest that such testing appear to at least cause the Natrix to back off a bit and react less consequently with regard to the specific topics under scrutiny. Although it also appeared to result in the Natrix just turned up the intrusions and manipulation attempts on other fronts in stead; and generally atempt to distract me with riddles and challenges and other kinds of tasks: And that even in ways that appeared a bit more mean spirited than usual, as it had made it appear as if it was someone I knew who had arranged some of the tasks. (Though fortunately I discovered in time that it was just another one of the Natrix' manipulations). - Still; considering the treatment the Natrix' was already giving me in the first place it can hardly be said to make all that much of a difference anyways. Other than the knowledge and clarification gained. As for the effectiveness of systematic testing as a "repellant" it may be too soon to evaluate for the moment. But on an overall I'd say that the knowledge gained outweighs the discomforts of the Natrix' reaction. Especially if the discomforts of the treatment the Natrix was already given you in the first place wasn't leaving much margin for the possibility of getting worse anyways. - Though in case self fulfillment of linguistic acts has been a problem of relevance to you it'll be a good idea to consequently use the past and pre past, rather than the present, grammatic tense (ie: writing what "happened" or "has happened" - rather than what "happens" or "is happening") to express your findings. This is the test I performed: The following lines contain two by two declarations: Two of them positively declare my sympathy of something, whereas the other two negatively declare my antipathy of something. - Furthermore two of them (one positive and one negative) declare honestly how I actually feel about those things, whereas the other two declare sarcastically something which is not my actual opinion.
September 6th 2008: Conclusions: First and foremost it would appear that the Natrix (or more precisely; whatever sub-system of the Natrix ("spirit" or "entity" if you will) it is that would appear to have been performing all those annoying intrusions and manipulations) don't like to have its reaction patterns tested, and has, contrary to what has previously been the case, more or less ignored my explicit opinions on these issues. "More or less". Which is to say that: As for the "sarcastic" declarations: I have encountered almost no references to those topics at all, and from the exceptional few references to those topics that I have encountered nothing could be conclusively deduced from the responses. (Whereas previously what has seemed to matter to the Natrix hasx simply been what I expressed, whereas it didn't seem to matter so much wether I honestly meant it or not.) As for the "honest" declarations: Also here the response to those topics have been sparse as compared to what used to be the case before I started this test. Although it has not been entirely absent, why some conclusions may be reached from the responses on these topics: As would also appear to have, in general, been the case before I started this test, the Natrix' responses to these declarations have been generally negative, which is to say that the the thing I (ie. negatively) expressed my antipathy against has been promoted positively and thus increased in the public space around me, whereas the thing I (ie. positively) expressed my sympathy with has been promoted negatively and thus decreased in the public space around me. My argumentation in these cases secondarily pointed out more than one specific phenomenon per paragraph, and closer scrutiny of the specific kind of response given by the Natrix may allow for a more nuanced conclusion: In one of the two paragraphs the literal meaning of the words I used did not quite precisely express my sentiment exactly. In this case the Natrix responded negatively to the underlying intent (ie. that which I had more precisely meant with the declaration), whereas the response to what the declaration, in a strictly literal sense was about (although references to that was made) was not of a particularly clear either positive or negative nature. In the other one of the two "truthful" paragraphs the literal words I had used harmonized well with what I actually meant, and in this case it was that which was responded to negatively. - So to sum up the conclusion of this paragraph: It seems that the Natrix has been promoting positively those topics that I expressed my antipathy with; and negatively those topics that I expressed my sympathy with. And furthermore it appears as if the Natrix has preferably aimed at promoting the oposite of what I meant with what I said rather than -of what I said. Which seems to be quite in line with the general trend of how the Natrix appear to have been responding hitherto. (Although it ought to be mentioned in this connection (which, however, should perhaps be viewed more specificly as a response to something else in particular, of more immediate actuality at the time) that during the course of the testing; the position which would be of convenience to me on another, unrelated, topic (of which I have rarely made any statements about at all, and none at all in the recent past), was suddenly and surprisingly being promoted positively for a change. Although it was in the context of a pro-/con debate (where it was the, for myself convenient perspective which was being given the favourable treatment), and the comentator for some reason (although this topic has nothing to do with politics at all) labelled the perspective that I would be prone to agree with as "the position of" the oposite political side of the "left/right"-wing scale than the side I would usually be prone to sympathise more with. - Which particular aspect is again quite in line with the general trend of how the Natrix appear to have been responding to my opinions hitherto.). As mentioned before the reaction pattern of the Natrix does seem to have been somewhat different during the testing than otherwise: Not so much with regard to what also before the test seemed to have been the general tendency of the responses, as it has rather been with regard to the amount and clarity of the responses; as if the Natrix appear to have been reluctant to give away too much and too clear information about its reaction patterns. Whereas before the testing the Natrix's responses would appear (although of course this is just my general impression, which I have no apparent means to test) to have been more generally aimed at whatever opinions I expressed; sarcastic or not, and at every aspect; literal as well as intended, of the phrasing I used to express it. As a hypothesis (which is to say it is by no means certain that that is the case; it is merely a theory, the validity of which could be subject to further testing) to explain the specifics of this discrepancy I would like to suggest that the Natrix may in fact not be capable of abstaining from responding to the test topics entirely; much the same way that a human is not capable of simply shutting off its sensory input on a particular part of the body or for a particular part of the sensory field: One may atempt to ignore a sensory input as best as one can, but one can not simply for example go temporarily deaf to a particular frequency, as a mere act of sheer will, or simply "decide on" being blind to a particular part of the visual field. (Or, as another; motoric analogy, which may perhaps be more relevant in this context: One may find a decision to negate the orientation reflex (ie. turning ones head in the direction of a sudden sound or movement), or to similarly abstain from some other reflex movement, at least extremely difficult to follow.*) The Natrix' reaction to testing seem to be reminiscent of how one react to a kind of discomfort; similar to how one avoids for example touching a part of the skin that hurts, or using an aching muscle. So my guess would be that the Natrix' may to some degree avoid responding to the topics being tested. Although it may not have succeeded in blocking out the most essential elements of this apparent "reflex behaviour", which might be expected (Hypothetically viewing the Natrix' response patterns as a product of something reminiscent of neuropsychologic processes; following the basic principles of neural processing) to make up the strongest impulse.
All this said, however, it would not be entirely unlike the Natrix, as I have come to know of it, to alter its response patterns following this test, so the conclusions may not be valid henceforth. Nov. 18th 2008: Other conclusions: Since it would appear that the Natrix had still not (as of November 18 2008) stopped bothering me I publish here the statistics I made of the Natrix' behavioral patterns; based on the first notes I made (throughout August 2008 until the beginning of September 2008), in relation to this test. This table shows the distribution of notes across the different categories I found to be of relevance:
Nov. 26th 2008: In addition to the notes upon which this table was based I commented (appr. September 2008), which I now publish here in response to the fact that the haunting spirit had at this date; November 26th 2008, had still not ceased to make its presence noted: Although there is nothing in these notes which have delivered an ocation to mention it I have at earlier occations noticed the following tendencies: - The Natrix' occational atempts that it has pretended to be whatever I have uttered or whatever opinion or hypothesis about it I have been prone to. - The Natrix' more or less homicidal tendencies that it has demonstrated in response to utterances of untruthfulness on the Natrix' part. [As also described - introduced? - by A.C.Clarke.] - The Natrix' tendency that it has let things* that I have uttered come to pass within certain limitations. (Which limitations are they? What are their rationale? [Further testing may perhaps shed more light on this point?]) *A comment on this: So far I have tried to upload this html document approximately twenty times, and each time the copy on the server ended up with a spelling mistake in "things". 'Some kind of emergency glitch to prevent it from being (publically) made 100% explicit? Or is it just another example of annuisance? It's spelled correctly in the copy I have on my own PC. - In addition I can mention as a statistical curiosity that although in five cases the server-copy ended up with the misspelling: "thiings", all the other times the misspelling was "thinngs". Though after I added this comment other misspellings; "thhings", and "tthings", occurred. - At this point I've gotten tired of "playing »fetch«". Dec. 26th 2008: Another trick that the Natrix has used in the atempt to generate fear and animosity, apart from general confusion, is the "wandering spirit" trick by which it atempt to create an illusion as if the personality of one person had "jumped" to a different person. The illusion may at first sight appear convincing, and may have the potential to stir up a lot of hostility within a group. (As I believe evidence suggest indeed it has in the past). But as it turns out it is nothing more than a simple matter of planting a few syntactical similarities. Needless to say; neither the presumed "source" person nor the presumed "destination" person has undergone any drastic change in personality. - The illusory nature of this occurance made itself demonstrably clear today (dec.27th 2008), as the Natrix had been atempting this trick in connection with one of its enactments of a narrative, although its performance on that part had been somewhat lacking in enthusiasm (as compared to other previous atempts), as the emphasis this time had been layed on the punchline which turned out be nothing more than just another insult. (It seem to have been fond of doing that). Feb. 2nd 2009: Whenever the Natrix appear to be "punishing" me for something I can conclude, not without a certain amount of glee, that I must have done something right since I've thus apparently managed to piss it off that much: - Today it was the ever so often reoccuring insunuations about something or other rather unspecified about "little girls". -As a pretty much consequent rule that has always been asociated specifically with me either expanding or uploading the Superstitions-Index, or uttering myself about my notion of being "on strike" or expressing the rationale of this idea. (I ought to mention in this connection that the onset of the Natrix' herassment (and with it the more (ie. not super-)"naturally" based herassment by evidently more concretely fysical people*) as such came right after I first started considering what I was getting in return for my creative work; and uttering my dissatisfaction in that regard, and consequently the notion of ceasing to work creatively). - As the "little girls" and similar insinuations of that kind seem to be just about the worst punishment/threat (short of the treats that consist of hinting at people I care about; which has typically followed as the next step when nothing else worked) that the Natrix seem prone to use, I can thereby conclude that the Superstitions-Index and the concept of creative/experiental strike appear to be the two single most damaging notions that I have managed to come up with against the Natrix (specifically damaging, perhaps, as a means against its power of intimidation), so far. And since the Natrix has evidently not, as of February 2nd 2009, stopped bothering me yet, I therefor feel strongly inclined to direct attention particularly towards those two ideas: The Superstitions-index, and the refusal to experience-, create-, or even conceive of anything interesting. *which phenomenon I conceive of as being subordinate to the broader context of- (or simply as a special case of-) the supernatural "haunting" or whatever you wanna call it. Feb. 18th 2009: It would appear like The Natrix (more specifically the "haunting spirit") was NOT happy about my previous note, as it has been behaving particularly bothersome for the past couple of weeks since then. So let me, in return, make this note about it. -Let me then today (based on private note on the Natrix' behaviour of August 16th 2008) nag about the way the Natrix has been responding to any atempt on my part to invest in anything: Thus for example any time I had atempted to invest in, for example, US$, or any other currency which was cheap at the moment, the tendency was up until now that immediately upon my ordering some amount of that currency; the value (and hence the price) of that currency temporarily started rising, until I received (and payed - thus a relatively higher price - for) the concrete money, at which point its value started dropping again. Of course the continuous drop of currency values WOULD BE profitable for me in the long turn, as the value must EVENTUALLY be expected to go back to something like before the economic crisis began and I started investing. However; dont underestimate The inventiveness the Natrix has shown when it came to spoiling my endeavours: For as soon as I was about to have scraped together any amount of money worth mentioning, two things happened: 1: The food prices started rising (thus making the "real world" actual value (ie. the value of the money as measured in how much bread etc. I would actually be able to buy for them) of whatever hypothetic profit I might otherwise expect to eventually gain, started to drop. So that, in other words; any future profit I might otherwise have been expected to gain from my currency investments down the line was effectively countered by inflation. - And 2: It sent me off on that wild goose chase (as also described here) where it had me spend half of the, actually not very much as it was, money I had managed to scrape together.
Mar. 8th 2009: Yesterday evening the Natrix - again - did one of its annoying "promotions" of ideas I conceived of: In this case it was the televized promotion corresponding with my first publication on my facebook account, of the little application that I had just made; which I posted on this site today. - It is not least that kind of annoying promotions which have made impossible any hope I may have had of actually making money on my ideas: For if that frickin' ghost give my ideas away in the public space to anyone, as soon as I even conceived of them, then how the heck should I possibly have any hope of developing them into any kind of sellable products before somebody else, who in advance have at their disposal the money and the staff of developers required to develope and patent the idea in no time?!... Then I'll rather not conceive of any new ideas at all. That way at least nobody else can make money on them either. Mar. 29th 2009: As the haunting spirit (which I have now named Looser, which may ocationally manifest itself embodied in the fysical form of Looser, Looser, and Looser - though I may henceforth refer to it simply by the nickname Fifi) has evidently not yet, as of March 29th 2003, stopped addressing me with its anuisances, I ought to make another remark about it: This time I'd like to call attention to the observation, of which I made a remark in my private notes of January 25th 2009; that supernatural entities may apparently become defective and cease to function optimally: For it appears that the haunting spirit's (ie. Fifi's, ie. Looser's) ability to create and uphold those deceitful narrative enactments by which it has atempted to motivate people to turn against each other, and to effectively disguise that motive, has become impaired. - This observation; that supernatural entities may become "broken" is of significance, as it demonstrate that such entities are not indestructable, but can be harmed, and consequently even terminated. Mar. 29th 2009: Since Fifi (ie. Looser; as is the name of the haunting spirit) has still not managed to NOT make its existence noticable within my perception, I publish today outtakes of the two entries from my private notes on which the previous entry on this webpage is based:
March 23rd: I abstain from commenting on the particular trouble by which Looser had once again tried to get me into a fight, and just conclude that Looser's behaviour the last couple of days has been as stupid and disloyal as on any previous ocation, and that Looser (again) appeared to have atempted to foist so called 'lessons' and "games" off on me (but I gave them back to the company from whence they came). - Looser; which is that which has hitherto caused-, effectuated-, and manifested itself as- (or, if it continue to do so in the present or in the future then Looser is that spirit which cause-, effectuate-, and manifest itself as-), paranormal occurances and correlations in my perceptual surroundings, is a rediculus little second rank blob of snot, on the face of which I scornfully wipe my feet! (After the previous entry; just before this entry; Looser then apparently tried to treaten me with its "funny friends"... Well I don't dispute that Looser's friends are funny people who tend to get into "funny" situations and whome very "funny" things tend to happen to - I already experienced that*.. Have a wild guess why I don't conceive of Looser as any kind of friend anymore). *As also described in entry of May 5th 2009, so you can see exactly how (not) "helpful" the paranormal is, and exactly what kind of (lousy) "friend" it is! May 5th: The past couple of days in particular I have on several ocations had it demonstrated that the rediculous little blob of snot that the paranormal (the name of which is Looser, and on the face of which I scornfully wipe my feet) is, has not yet (as of May 5th 2009) finished atempting to spoil my walks as well as pretty much anything else I do, and has generally been doing what it could to try to get me in conflict with people, and has otherwise tried its damndest to be, as effectively as possible, a waste of my time, money, and resources, by manifesting itself as irregularities; the names of which are Looser, Looser, and Looser, and which are also reduculous little second rank blobs of snot, on the faces of which I scornfully wipe my feet! - Though as mentioned: The past couple of days have been particularly prone to that kind of thing. Presumably Looser is not happy about the Deghoster* (the consequent use of which, might I add, appear to have significantly weakened Fifi's (aka Looser's, aka the paranormal's) ability to effect me). So obviously I'm not wasting this opportunity to refer attention to it here as well as on the "Ludicrous" page. *Not to mention the apparently very unappreciable fact of me demonstrating the ability to write a merely reasonably decent software application. May 6th: Just making a note on the fact that the paranormal has once again, just prior to me writing this entry, demonstrated itself to be named Looser, by manifesting itself at all. The paranormal, the name of which is Looser, and which manifest itself as Looser, Looser, and Looser, (although on occation I scornfully refer to it as Fifi), is a rediculous little blob of Snot who could not chase me off to prevent me from querrying knowhow today, with its rediculous and insignificant likeness to a wing-clipped parrot in a baking oven! I tauntingly wipe my feet on the face of Fifi, as I scornfully call the paranormal, although its name is truely Looser, and it manifest itself as Looser, Looser, and Looser, and on the face/faces of which I wipe my feet! May 30th: Since I threw the television apparatus away a bit more than a week ago I've to a significant degree been delightfully liberated from Fifi's comments and suggestions. After all the television was Fifi's preferred place of manifestation within my home, with the result that I wasn't watching much television anyways, except the couple of channels that was broadcasting in languages I don't understand. And even on those channels Looser (as is of course actually the name of the paranormal, although I scornfully refer to it by the mock name "Fifi") eventually managed to find ways to get semantics across. - Anyways Looser had been having the fix idea of playing a sort of "guess-the-object" game in which it would hint at some object or piece of inventory in my appartment, seemingly at random, that it apparently wanted me to get rid of (or atempted to taint with some asociative jinx so that I'd had to get rid of it). Eventually it sort of casually mentioned the PC (which may be a couple of years old but which is functioning perfectly well - It seemed at the time to have some agenda of forcing me to upgrade*: it's also been picking on my cellphone - which likewise is a couple of years old but is functioning perfectly well - by getting the memory card destroyed and then did its worst to block my access to the few places where they still have the right kind of memory card on stock). *But don't let that fool you into believing it's out of concern for me having up-to-date equipment or anything like that: Rather it seem it was a reaction to the fact that I was so careless to express reluctancy to upgrade since I've no need to. -And of course; forcing me to upgrade would also be another way of atempting to drain my finances - as draining me of resources seem to have been a deliberate aim of any of Fifi's suggestions and interferances. So I reminded it of all the money it had already made me waste on futile endeavours and made it clear that I have absolutely no intention on investing any more money in any new expensive acquisitions unless it compensate me financially. Especially since I remember only too well how my previous purchase of a new PC went, and Fifi's particularly NOT funny sense of humour at that occation, costing me two and a half thousand DKR (in addition to all the other expenses Fifi has been costing me ever since that pointless journey abroad it made me go on - all in all easily running up in appr. between twenty and thirty thousand DKR) of wasted money! (And that's just the up-front cash amounts that it has been costing me; then add lost revenue over the past ten years or so, due to having (asumingly absolutely deliberately) obstructed any atempt on my part of getting the basic necessities to establish myself on the job market, such as a diploma, a job, a drivers licence, having prevented me from selling creative products, etc., etc., and you can easily add a couple of zeroes to that amount of actual money which I could strictly speaking argue it owe me* in compensation...** Not to speak of what Fifi; by its mere presence, has been costing me socially and personally - how could anyone possibly put a price tag on that?) -Though Fifi (of course -I wasn't actually expecting it to be) didn't seem to have any intent whatsoever of anything like compensating me financially, but responded in stead with what appeared to be an atempt to sound like a hypnotizer trying (not very convincingly) to command me: "forget"... So that's when I decided right there and then that as electronic devices go the television apparatus is one piece of machinery that I can definately do without! (Sigh! And to think all that fuzz was just because I refuse to produce any (significant amount or quality of) creative work, until I can expect actually getting payed anything useful and enjoyable in return... Such as money... Just imagine how much time would've not been wasted if only Fifi would've granted me that from the beginning...) - I did manage to "correct" it though, so that it finally worked perfectly normal, like any other absolutely ordinary television apparatus ...which has been worked over with an axe! *Not that I'm expecting to actually ever get any of that money back. -I'm just making the point. (Although I darn well ought to add to that amount ten years worth of RENT too (personally I think 100.000,- DKR per month sound about right; it's not like an enclosure of bricks and concrete or something like that, but my cognitive apparatus, it been trashing), due to Fifi having been using my perceptual field, vocabulary, and bandwidth off my spoken, written, and otherwise semantic, interface of communication and perception). - Again: Not that I'm actually expecting to ever get any of that money. I'm just making the point. **And let me at this point in particular point out - again - that any 1st person pronoun (words like "I", "me", "mine", etc.) on this entire website refer exclusively to Rasmus Palbo Nielsen; not to anything nor anybody else! - Fifi still tried though, through a different channel of communication, to taint stuff on my PC; in particular a graphics application that I used to make some of the icons for the software downloads. I did manage to avert the asault though, and came up with the desktop toothpicks program as a result, tentatively as protection against similar atempts. Pointing with sharpened wooden sticks does seem to have had, if not terminal-, then at least some effect. [June 10th: Although, I have to add; apparently more in the direction of causing Looser to make itself comfy in the role as exorcised vampire(s) - same illusion-breakdown as in the case of any of its atempted "personality-transfer" illusions commented on earlier: Looser has kept reappearing; only in a new shape. - What DOES seem to be more permanently effective - and what appear to be the actual cause of the significant drop in paranormal activity in my perceptual world, which admittedly has occured lately, - is the naming that I have started using, plus, I should add;] the "ornamentation" with which I equipped Fifi (or, more precicely, its preferred place of manifestation; namely the television). So that hint has hereby been passed on. June 9th: For reasons unknown to me, someone has for quite some time been practicing the somewhat odd act of placing different objects around in the neighbourhood where I live (particularly bycicles (possibly another reference to a particular writing on a certain forum at a certain time, to do with the other references commented in the graffitis photos section) seem to have been popular; for example placed upside down, or in the middle of the road, or otherwise strangely presented - though lately they appear to have lost interest in the placement of bycicles, whereas rocks seem to have been more in favour lately - though also jackets, gloves, beer cans, and other objects seem to have been subject to this weird behaviour) - especially in the school yard which is also mentioned in the graffitis photos section (one might of course suspect that it is the same person). - This gives me the opportunity, of course, to comment on the necessary distinction I already pointed out (in the communication with a former acquaintance of mine which I published on this site earlier); between, on one hand; the actually paranormal phenomenon of a haunting "spirit" (or whatever you call it - I call it Fifi - although, of course, its actually named Looser) effectuating-, and manifesting itself as, paranormal phenomena (such as, typically, statistically (very) abnormal concentrations of "irregular" occurances and correlations) the nature of which is such that it strongly suggest a some degree of "consciousness" or "intentionality"; although they could not possibly have been arranged by any concrete fysical person or persons - and on the other hand phenomena which are evidently caused by concrete fysical people, in ways which are quite explainable within the parameters of classical fysics and normal everyday language (although the rationale of them may not be). Thus that point ought to be sufficiently clarified. - It may be of relevance to mention it on this page (other than because Fifi - in spite, admitedly, of having appeared unusually inactive lately - apparently still not (as of June 9th, 2009) has entirely ceased to manifest itself) to make more clear the distinction between the "paranormal component" and the actual people, and how to apply it. Although the distinction may often be somewhat unclear. As it would seem, however, that whomeever made the graffitis and are placing objects around (asuming it is the same person or persons), in spite, of the means by which they did so must of course have been quite natural and need no reference to anything paranormal; the rationale of these strange acts appear to be, at least to some degree, akin to something like what we might refer to as "voodoo" magic, and as such relate to the paranormal aspect of the persecution, which is the general topic of this document. October 9th: 'I can't be bothered anymore with commenting on anything except that paranormal fenomenology has repeatedly since the last entry demonstrated; by it's obvious lack of ability to not occur, to be named Looser (although I scornfully refer to it by the nickname Fifi) and to be a rediculous little second rank blob of snot on the face of which I scornfully wipe my feet. And I can't be bothered with reacting to any of its boring manifestations, since all previous examples have unequivocally demonstrated Fifi's utterances and manifestations to be of no concrete usefulness; financially or otherwise. - Paranormal fenomenology is implicitly boring and I can't be bothered with it. November 2nd: Man, I, Rasmus Palbo Nielsen, would feel so stupid if it had been me who couldn't get a relatively intelligent, inventive, and skillful person to use that intellect, inventivity, and skill, because I had neglected, and made virtually impossible, the fulfillment of his needs. November 7th: Man, I, Rasmus Palbo Nielsen, would feel so stupid if it had been me who was loosing not only a, seemingly valued as such, production and research unit, plus most of the, seemingly valued, production and research ever generated by him - but also, and perhaps most importantly, all of the production and research he would have otherwise generated in the course of the next sixty years or however long he could otherwise had been expected to live - because I had made work conditions impossible - and, of course, because I had neglected, and made virtually impossible, the fulfillment of his needs. November 10th: Man, I, Rasmus Palbo Nielsen, would feel so stupid if it had been me who time and again had to miss out on products and research that could-have-been, because my mere presence was spoiling the work-, trade-, and living conditions - and thereby too, of course, the fulfillment of the otherwise potential producer's and researcher's needs. - Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. November 30th: Recently Fifi (had arranged to have) brought to my attention a tool with which I could presumably have solved the only trouble with that application again which I mentioned in the "Primo November" entry on the software page; of it being abit slow, plus otherwise atempted to motivate me to recreate it. Hence I asume that Fifi would like me to make the application again. However, not only do I not have any guarantee that I would earn any profit from it; but in fact any previous experience with Fifi's behaviour soforth constitutes a very good reason to strongly asume that I wouldn't, and that it would only be another instance of Fifi arranging to get my ideas stolen. Due to which fact I simply just have so much more reason that I will absolutely not create that-; nor any other, resource. December 25th: Although I removed the note I used to have in a box on the front page of this website since august, so as not to cause unnecessary distress, my decision as was expressed in it still stands: Personally I would rather die than become a 'fourty year old virgin', which appear inavoidable given that I live until my fourtieth birthday. So it is settled: I am going to commit suicide on September 16th 2010, if not sooner. Of course this absolutely guarantee that I am never going to have sex ever again and that I am never going to produce any biological decendents. - Not only does the mere presence of paranormal activity implicitly make normal social and romantic interactions impossible, but the mere awareness that emotions and behaviour has frequently been induced or staged by the paranormal (ie. Looser - a.k.a. Fifi) implicitly makes impossible the satisfaction of my romantic and sexual needs at all; since such needs regard genuine emotions; not staged simulation or the induced product of something akin to drug rape. Thus it is the mere presence of paranormal activity which makes my decision, as expressed here, inavoidable. Regarding a Colorizer tutorial |
and the refusal to experience-, create-, or even conceive of anything interesting here, as the last item on this page, so it won't get drowned out by other, later, notes. |
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